i couldn't sleep all night long... not only last night... since holidays, i could sleep at least 4 hours each day, but last night (the worst i think) i really couldn't sleep at all...
my head was full of thoughts 'bout balikpapan, pingu, crista, midterm, hmt paper, christmas, choir, science 1, vanellasasia, family, committee, and myself...
(it seemed like crista...)
but, the most disturb thing was... MOSQUITO!!!!
huaaaaa!!! there was only one mosquito... but, it really2 disturbed me...
i also tried to study... but my eyes were too heavy... so, what i did last night was just...
laid on my bed, and thought about those things (i tried too sleep, but failed)
my head was dizzy, and i must get up at 6...
i hadn't study yet, just a little (because there was black out last night, so i couldn't study at all)
as a result, today i can't concentrate... i can't answer the questions well
i wanna cry... huhuhuhuhuhuhu
how about today? will i get the insomnia again???
however, when i thought about those things last night, i really disappointed 'bout myself...
i always said i wanna be better than before, but i think, i never go on better...
i tried to become a people who can make people happy, but i think i'm lying to myself T T
what i do, what i say, what i've done, never make people around me satisfy, useless
i don't have any courage to think positive 'bout myself... it become a fear for me to go on further...
but, i always try to move on, do the best, like mona said, "ignore them! u just try to do your best! ok??" maybe it will work, i wish... CHERISH ^ ^
my head was full of thoughts 'bout balikpapan, pingu, crista, midterm, hmt paper, christmas, choir, science 1, vanellasasia, family, committee, and myself...
(it seemed like crista...)
but, the most disturb thing was... MOSQUITO!!!!
huaaaaa!!! there was only one mosquito... but, it really2 disturbed me...
i also tried to study... but my eyes were too heavy... so, what i did last night was just...
laid on my bed, and thought about those things (i tried too sleep, but failed)
my head was dizzy, and i must get up at 6...
i hadn't study yet, just a little (because there was black out last night, so i couldn't study at all)
as a result, today i can't concentrate... i can't answer the questions well
i wanna cry... huhuhuhuhuhuhu
how about today? will i get the insomnia again???
however, when i thought about those things last night, i really disappointed 'bout myself...
i always said i wanna be better than before, but i think, i never go on better...
i tried to become a people who can make people happy, but i think i'm lying to myself T T
what i do, what i say, what i've done, never make people around me satisfy, useless
i don't have any courage to think positive 'bout myself... it become a fear for me to go on further...
but, i always try to move on, do the best, like mona said, "ignore them! u just try to do your best! ok??" maybe it will work, i wish... CHERISH ^ ^
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